Update!

Have you ever, for a moment during the rush hours, stopped still in your tracks and yearned for a fresh breath of air in your life that would change everything around you? I have, and I pursued this fresh breath of air. It was fresh, but it was strong. It was more of a strong gush of wind rather than a crisp, gentle breeze that greets the face.

This gush of wind was what I have gone through over the past few weeks.

I had an absolute whale of a time with A in NYC, having lunch at Times Square, watching Broadway musicals, walking through the city, strolling through the park with the Statue of Liberty in the backdrop (illuminated by the dusk sky), cheering the Yankees, swinging away in Central Park - and most of all, just simply giving our time to each other before we begin our adventures. We parted at the train station, and it was a solo trek for me from then on. The wheels of one of my luggage pieces were smashed, and that really dissed me. It made it much more difficult, and throughout the whole 90min train ride to Princeton, I kept questioning myself if this was worth it all. I could have not subjected myself to all these. I had the choice. I made the choice.

I faced the strong gush of wind.

This wind hit me especially hard during international orientation. The thought of having so many uncertainties really made me feel the angst. I wasn't sure if I would fit in, if I would be able to cope with the academics, if I would stay true to the values and dreams I had of my education. It's easy to get lost in fear and get blown by the wind. I used to picture myself here, walking through the castles, making use of my education to make the world a better place. But now that I'm here I'm not too sure how everything will turn out. I will take things one step at a time, starting with my meeting with my college academic adviser on Monday. Classes start on Thurs, and I can't wait for it. I haven't been in school for 3 years, but I'm looking forward to meeting those superstar Profs. It's crazy when yr Profs were the ones who discovered the theorems in textbooks, and all won either the top prizes in their fields or the Nobel. Ben Bernanke used to teach Econ 101 before he was the Fed boss.